I had the first conversation with my husband in 4 days; it is the first time that we have talked since he left me in Germany with a plane ticket home and 120 Euro. He says that he isn't happy with himself and being alone makes him stronger. Really?
I don't have a come back for that. I really don't. How does hurting me make him feel better? How does losing my support make him stronger? I wish that I could wrap my head around it. It's so hard to come to grips with the idea that everything isn't always about me. That something could fall apart, no matter how much I want to hold it together. I want to be in control. We said forever, dammit. I want my freakin' forever.
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